I've had some feedback from a few people saying I should write more.

I do miss it.

I used to write more often as it helps me use my creative energy. Writing my last post was a lot easier because I was literally writing from experience. There was nothing for me to make up or try and imagine in my head. I didn't get stuck, or find the words to write. It came from the heart.

I am doing okay today. Still bleeding but a lot less than it had been in days previous. I had some points today where I felt low and felt numb. I then realized that I will be okay in the end. I will persevere and get through this. I have friends and family who are here to support me and make sure I'll be okay.

Tonight was very fun and just what the doctor ordered. I visited with B for the first time in what feels like forever. We went to Sushi. Let me tell you: it was the best sushi I have had in a long time. I can't decide if it was because I have not had sushi in a long time (I couldn't because I was pregnant) or they just made a really good batch this time. Either way I ate mine so fast I felt bad that my whole roll was gone and she had barely finished her miso soup! We got some chatting in. Our lives are changing in ways we can't understand right now but in time we will get where we need to go.

After sushi we went to this wonderful place that had every type of alcohol you can imagine! I know what you must think, why am I calling this place wonderful? Well you see in my situation, I need to get away from things. Even if it is just for a little bit. We got some whiskey and some rum. We got a quick little potpourri to try out a few new drinks. We had some good music on and just danced it out in the kitchen. That's what we do. We enjoy each other's company while being stupid as hell and not judge each other for it.

We then moved our little party into the living room where I had the brilliant idea of "Hey let's put on Disney music and sing!" I love to sing, even if I suck sometimes. She had some cards out on her table and somehow we decided to shuffle them while singing Beauty and the Beast and Little Mermaid. It probably looked so weird but I think we needed it. You need to just let your inner self come out for a little bit.

I am now home and enjoying writing again. I am in the living room with Kimmy by my side. 2k and Leroy are running about like crazy and Derek is watching Star Trek.

Everything considered, life is good. I would say that I am happy right now. I am sad, but I am happy.